Here's one I did earlier

06:17 05/03/2006 [Sunday]

I have been thinking since I have been properly awake what difficulties I currently have in life and in particular difficulties I can reasonably put down to the Experiment. Before I was properly awake I was in an unhappy state, and I was wondering what was the nature or origin of the unhappiness. I was also going over my suspicions of yesterday about the Toshiba A60 system ... and asking myself what problems essentially a faulty system or suspicions of a faulty system could cause me.

Because the overridingly significant part of my life is thinking, most of the problems I have when I have problems are to do with interference with thinking. In fact it is arguable all of the problems I have when I have problems are of this nature. Physical discomfort and pain are undesirable because they interfere with thinking. Unfortunately thinking is not measurable by medical people and disruption of my thinking life has been felt to be little significant by the Experimenters.

As regards the Toshiba A60 system, the problems I have had have been crashes at inopportune moments and slowdown of the system. However, these have led me to spend considerable time investigating the origin of the problems and thinking about the Windows operating system and installation when I could have been thinking about other things [....] The stage I have reached is that I feel confident the Sony Vaio (for example) will do what I want from a computer - what I spend money to buy a computer for - unless and until it is connected to the internet. Any software discs I purchase I feel could have been corrupted or could become corrupted by the Authorities and after installation (say on the Sony Vaio) I would be more prone to system problems than one statistically should be in the nature of the risk attaching to bought (or free) software. (A problem this causes me is reluctance to buy software discs I might otherwise benefit from or enjoy.)

A major problem caused by a system crash is loss of information. This leads me to buy many discs for backing up to and spend a lot of time backing up. Apart from that there is the time spent recovering the system (and the knock-on requirement mentioned above to spend time unravelling why it happened and trying to prevent a recurrence).

Also (I may say) distortion of information is a considerable disruption, or suspicions I have of distortion. In the past for example I have not trusted books I have bought on drugs and their effects, feeling they could have been interfered with or ‘planted’ for me to look at. The origin of these suspicions was in notions I had in the early 1980s when (affected by amphetamine) I read certain books that they were perverse and had been specially reprinted. Thus the after-effect of amphetamine can go on for decades.

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